Black Bean Cocoa Soymilk Banana Smoothie

This morning, I was really exhausted and didn't feel like eating at all and had stomach pains, so I made a soymilk banana smoothie with a black bean cocoa pudding.
It was so healthy and delicious that my pain went away ;)

Why I had the pain is because I was still anxious and argued about the issue again with him last night. Damn!!! I think we've been kept on doing this for about 4 months. He didn't like it, of course, so we had a big fight again. He said he really wants to be with me but he can't if I'm always like this.

Then I finally realized one big thing when he told me he wants to move forward. In addition to "trust" and "forgiveness", I should "NEVER LOOK BACK"!!! Knowing the past will never help improve anything because you can't change the past. You just get nervous and nag your loved one. I know some poeple (like me) want to make things clear before you move on to the next step, but it's just a waste of time. I am sorry to all people who become victim to our stuff...

I will never look his cell or make a search for his secret from today. I will always trust his words. I believe this is the true "trust" because my mistrust was an axe.

It is easy to understand this in your mind but not from the bottom of your heart until you experience it, so it took me a long time to get these ideas.

This is my last post about this. I will never look back. I know we can be super happy then ;)

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Blue Garden

Last night, under the lovely weather, my boyfriend and I went to an Italian restaurant called Blue Garden where you can enjoy authentic Italian food.

We opened a bottle of wine :)

What a nice day with a nice breeze.
I still felt anxious about the girl but I made up with him right away!!!

I liked the name of seasonal mixed salad, "genki salad", which means energetic salad! It made us happy :) Their pizza was amazingly delicious. The cheese pizza called Italice is made with mozzarella, gorgonzola, taleggio, and parmigiano cheese. You pour honey over it. It was superb and went well with our wine.

By the way, I bought a new dress on this day before I see him because I was wearing sportswear. He asked me for a dinner at noon, so I canceled my plan to go to the gym. That's why.

Couples look happy, everything seems fine, but no one knows what's behind... Like merce-san says, "trust" and "forgiveness" might be the key. I don't want to argue with him anymore and I know he will never tell me the truth. Merce-san might be right. Thanks!

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Keio Asahi Sky Beer Garden

Hi! This weekend was again really fast. How was yours?

On Saturday evening, my boyfriend and I went to the Keio Asahi Sky Beer Garden. The weather was perfect for outdoor drinking, so it was already crowded at around 6PM! The food was brought really fast to the table, which allowed us to relax! You know what I mean. Ha-ha ;)

The Hawaiian festival at the department store was great! Everything was expensive, but I found a nice plumeria hair accessory and a plumeria poepoe lei that goes perfect with my new Pa'u skirt! I bought the very left one with white flowers (plumeria)!

This weekend, I again argued with my bf about girl(s)... he was really mad at me because I didn't give up. But I just realized it's better knowing nothing than knowing only the negative things, because his attitude toward me never changed and he was and is always nice to me!

The weather has been lovely these days! Tonight he asked me to go out for a drink again. I hope we can make up.

LOVE and PEACE!

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